School

Today I felt sad and in a weird mood. I was dreading going to my chemistry class tonight and I didn't know why. Many know that going to school has been an obstacle and there are many frustrations to achieving my goal of being an RN. I don't expect people to understand why I'm doing it nor do I care if people understand. My family comes first in everything I do and my intentions are good. I have fought for every class and have had to jump through hoops to get into very hard classes but have managed to get in. My studying consists of flash cards in my purse, listening to lectures Ive taped in class and reading till my eyes can't stay open. Today was different, I felt my drive has diminished and its not like me. I was fighting the feeling that this class was wrong to be in but I went to the campus anyway. I called Jake right away and told him how I was feeling and he put out some ideas of why I was feeling this way. When I got off the phone I said a prayer and made my decision and it felt right. I dropped the class!

I'm taking another class online and I'm now 7 units from my degree. I've put my nursing papers in at COC and AVC. I have a couple other schools that I will have my papers in at but have to wait for the open date. I have some other ideas of what I will do during this semester and waiting for answers from the schools I've applied to. My dad made light of the subject and it was defiantly what I needed at the time, he said that his daycare company is going to go out of business if I don't go to school so I need to find something to do so the kids can be there with them. Thank heavens for my dad and the hard work he instilled in his kids...love him!